My Story – I have always been a bubbly & outgoing person, full of energy and always been the outgoing girl. I would have been the last person you would have thought would suffer from anxiety and depression… but how wrong were people. If there’s one thing I’ve learnt is that anyone with any character can develop this awful illness.
It all started whilst I was working in a call centre, on paper it sempt the perfect job for me, talking on the phones all day (as I’m a chatter box!) And it was an outgoing environment . The management was horrible,they looked down on you & the pressure put on you was unreal. It was the middle of June and red hot, I sat at my desk and all of a sudden got a huge rush of heat throughout my body, pins and needles in my hands, my legs were like jelly, I felt sick, felt like my stomache was falling out and I had the most overwhelming feel of fear. I ran to the toilet and was trying to be sick and nothing come out. That was my first PANIC ATTACK. At the time I wasn’t aware of panic attacks I thought I had a stomach bug! From then on for around a year I was having panic attacks up to 5 times a day even laid in bed they were happening. It was the scariest time of my life and no one understood how it felt. Finally I had to quit my job I couldn’t leave the house,I couldn’t even stand in a Que in the shop without panicking. I went to the doctors and was given Fluoxetine and diazepam which did nothing. See below the tips that helpt me beat Anxiety.
Touch wood I haven’t had a panic attack for over a year.. it’s all about mind control
1. Hypnosis Videos – Don’t ask me what made me try Hypnosis videos, No one even mentioned them to me… I just figured it’s all coming from my brain, So that’s what I need to control… My brain! I went on YouTube and searched ‘ hypnosis videos for Anxiety’ and found some amazing videos. At first they didn’t work because I wasn’t allowing them to, I just couldn’t switch off. Every night I would lay on my bed put my headphones in and listen for half an hour and eventually it worked. This is number 1 on my list because I truly believe this was the real saviour to beating my anxiety.
2. CBT Therapy – I had never been to therapy let alone heard of CBT Therapy. I visited my doctor and talked about how I was feeling and they recommend CBT Therapy. CBT Therapy is designed to help you learn how to re-train your brain. I use to think of everything that could go wrong before the situation even happened. If I was going to a works Christmas due i would think ‘wheres the nearest escape route’ ‘were going on a mini bus, how am I going to get all the way home if I need to’ anxiety stops you thinking logically and CBT helps you with that. One of the exercises was to write down all my fears and then write down logically how to solve to fear/ situation.
3. Talking – it sounds simple doesn’t it & the most obvious… but talking does really help. I think the person you talk to plays a massive part in your recovery. I couldn’t speak to anyone really other than my Mum. I had so many people around me that I could talk to and so much support, but my mum was the only person I could talk to… My mum suffers from Bipolor so I knew she would have insight into how I was feeling . She helpt me so much, at the time when she was trying to get me to go out, making me go to the shops I hated it but now I know she was doing it to force me out and not let me stay in the rut of staying in bed all day and isolating myself.
4. Step out of your comfort zone – No matter how scary it feels you have to try and step out of your comfort zone. For me I didn’t like being around a lot of people, I didn’t like feeling like I was trapped. I decided to go to Camden Market in London… One of the biggest markets with hundreds of stalls, hundreds of people and very limited toilets, I knew going there that I would have no where to escape if needed. And sure, I had a panic attack, i just hugged my boyfriend and ignored everyone around me and kept telling myself I am fine, I can do this and I did it… and that was the last panic attack I ever had!
5. Excercise – I started swimming, a light Excercise that required little effort and I could relax aswell as excersising if that makes any sense? I loved being in the pool away from too many people and somewhere I could just have a bit of me time. I went for walks in the peak district and just enjoyed the wind on my face, the fresh air and the peace & quiet. I have lost count of the amount of times I went out into the peak district when I was at my worst… it was just the place I could be alone and just be me and think.
Just remember you never truly know what anyone is going through, people paint a brave face on, people hide their feelings and from the outside looking in people can look like the ‘perfect happy person’ but that is what they want you to see and how they portray themselves. Be kind to everyone!
I BEAT ANXIETY… SO CAN Y O U ! Xx